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Guilty Ramblings I still am sitting here so bored...2 entries in one day. Sheesh. You know, I wish I could go back and turn my whole life around...I have done so many things i regret. Too many things to name. And I know that it is all said and done, and there is nothing I can do. But it's like I have this bitter after-taste left in my mouth, and that after-taste is regret that will never wash away. It will sit there, like oil, nothing to wash it down. Sigh. Why do I do this to myself? I'm torturing myself, really. Because I will just go home and get trashed and think about how much I SUCK. Gotta love alcohol...it can wash away everything. (Or so I thought, until it didn't wash away the pain of C leaving). So not everything. But pretty damn close. |