Alcoholic
Saturday, Jul. 10, 2004, 10:08 a.m.

My drinking is out of control. I know I say this all the time, every few entries.

But it's getting really bad. I have not gone 3 days without drinking in almost 3 years. And I just turned 21 in Feb. For the past few months I have gotten intoxicated every night. I poisoned myself last night.

After 3 drinks I puked. I have not puked from alcohol in YEARS. And 3 drinks to me is nothing. But I did it, I puked. And when you puke, that means you have been poisoned. I need to stop this. I have come so freaking far in life.

In the past 3 years I have completely turned my life around and am someone to be proud of. I guess I turned to drinking to stay off the drugs, and now I can't stop drinking.

I need help.

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