Depressed
Friday, May. 28, 2004, 1:05 p.m.

So much to say, but so little I actually want to put out into the public eye. I'm stressed. Everything makes me cry. I feel as though I am making the woorst decision I could ever possibly make, but at the same time I know it is the right thing to do. I am so...

depressed. And I hate that word. I have nothing to be depressed about. it's just that I don't want to do this. I DON'T!!!!

But it has to be done. I have come so far in my life in such a short amount of tim, you knw? And this will just slow me down.

I've done it before, I can do it again. I have to. For me, for Baby, and for C. It just, well, hurts. I am so goddamn emotionally whacked right now and it is fucking tearing me apart.

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